Waiting Day

Asslm and good morning..?

Ohisashiburi!! I HAVENT UPDATE THIS BLOG LIKE 2YEARS??  FEEL LIKE I DONT UPDATE THIS BLOG LIKE YEARS!! Fyi, I already end my uitm foundation and alhamdulillah got good pointer even though nt really the best. But still Im proud of it cause only asasian will know how the struggle we ve been through. T_T Also, my holiday break only a few weeks left to pursue my degree. Right now I am a kindergarten teacher hahaa.

Yesterday, (since I am updating this blog at 0037hrs) upu result has been released. Also with usm and um. Sadly I was rejected by um. Its okay because uitm and usm still want to take me haha. Both universities offer me bachelor in computer science. Which is the course that I have dream for (since I was in foundation 2nd sem). It is not really my dream. But I realized I am nt good enough in pure science subjects especially BIOLOGY!! My high school result is nt that bad. Hmm wondering too what made me so dislike and lazy to study biology. Maybe the terms hav been longer and the process of everything has been too confused and complicated. Same goes to chemistry. What the heck I dont understand what I am learning for. I am nt fed up with them. I just quit. But I do want to relearn them, just for fun. For personal knowledge haha. All of the moments before I studied them just fr pass exam. zzzzzzz

I am happy for my friends. Many of them got good courses or the courses that they wanted. And sadly, there is also a few of them who dont get the courses they want, either rejected or get another course offered. I am praying the best for you guys. Lets fight together even we pursue degree in another university. Together we success!!

Minna, ganbarimashou ne!! (^v^)

It is a dream to walk with you in college.
And spend time together, like in high school.
The good old times. :)

PLKN Feedbacks

Assalamualaikum and hi.

A big alhamdulillah, praised to Allah because Im still alive right now. Alhamdulillah I can still breathe. Pheww..

Alhamdulillah again. I had completed my Khidmat Negara. Two months taught me many things. My two months life in Kem PLKN Warisan, Masjid Tanah, Melaka is full of sad and happy moments. Thanks for my coaches, my lovely Charlie Company, my daring BP4 dormates and my bestfriends Tiga Bersaudara. Dont say Im sombong cause I actually miss you guys so much. 

PLKN taught me how to survive by myself. Arrange myself which work have to settle first. When to do the laudry. I learnt about life and friendship. This stuffs I never get even i schooled for 5years. I learnt about being a good leader. And be nice to everyone. Even you dislike them. Kindly remember, not everyone likes you. So dont have the feeling of perasan bagus and perasan terlebih santan. You have to do stuffs on your own feet and depends on people you trust. No. Actually trust everyone. Teamwork. It is depends on what stuffs you're doing. You couldnt share your private stories to public. And I learnt that we shouldnt and never tell bad about people. You have to advice them first. If things getting worse, then you tell the teachers. Dont forget about justice. No matter the person fault is your own friend or your enemy. Bear in mind. And be tough. Life must go on. Two months without phone is not the end of your life. Dont dont ever do such the reckless things!!

I also learnt that distance make the love stronger. For the first time in forever I miss my parents, my siblings my family so damn much. I miss my home. I miss my-neighbour's-chicken. I miss the grocery nearby my house. I miss the surau we always go every Sunday. I miss Xemra like hell. And I miss Daus so damn much. For the first time in forever I miss Daus so much much my heart hurt damn much. For the first time I felt so desperate. I couldnt communicate with my family my friends and him. Once a week only, until we were given our phones back. I just hunting and watching for the moon. Hoping that Daus would do the same though. Sobsob. 

Alhamdulillah. Right now. I feel more alive. LOL. My love towards my family is more and more. And I can feel theirs toward me is getting increase too. I know like hell they miss me too. Cause this was the first time we separated. I can see it in my parents' eyes. :) even mama and abah dont mention it. No. They will never mention it I know that well. p/s: My brother seems crazy for not arguing with me since Im not at home haha. 

For Daus, I can feel it. The feeling is getting stronger. Distance taught me to trust more and be loyal. I hope we stay longer and insya allah until marry and live a happy ever after life till jannah!! Hehe. I am looking towards our plans. May Allah ease everything. ^_^

Mata ne. Oyasumi!! 

My Dal Po.

Konnichiwa.

I got only 2 days left for PLKN. *sigh* Well actually I aint sighing about PLKN. But I am a bit touched with my Dal Po. Hmmm I missed him like hell and he isnt even... Ok. I do agree, he a bit busy and he must have his own plan and life. But... STILL.. 

Am i too ego? HAHA. I dont think so. I dont want him to see me that I am so desperate. Yes, I am totally desperate to talk to him. But I try to make something else to forget the damn feeling but nah its only works for a while until then I remember it again. Huaaaa... T_T

This is why I hate premenstrual cycle signs. I hate it so much, My focus is disrupted. I miss him a lot. And a lot. And the worst is I know maybe we cant even text for 2 months can you imagine that? I try hard to calm myself down that everything gonna be okay I know we have even pass through this kinda long-term-relationship when he away at SABDA. But, still.. :(

I think this is my punishment of last year. Hmm.. I love Dal Po. Dont ever leave me. Take care for two months there. Remember we have a-long-plan-outing after PLKN. Again, I hate premenstrual cycle signs!!

Hmm bad Dal Po!! :"(

Ohlala Couple~

Konnichiwa!!

Sooo exam about three dyas left. THREE DAYS. and then it will be a great yay for me. HOliday two weeks and ahemm ahemm.. okay forget about that cough part. Now Im watching Ohlala Couple. The last Korean Drama I watched after PMR. Pfftt what a long time.. Now Im watch back to end up the episodes.

OST cover

Let me introduce the CASTS:

Kim Jung Eun as Na Yeo Ok (heroin)

Shin Hyun Joon as Ko Soo Nam (hero)

Han Jae Seuk as Jang Hyun Woo (second guy)

Han Chae ah as Victoria Kim (second lady)

Byun Hee Bong as Wol Ha (long white beard old man)

Narsha as female Shaman

Jeong Jae Sun as Park Bong Suk (Soo Nam's mom)

Juni as Ko Ill Ran (Soo Nam's sis)

Um Do Hyun as Go Ki Chan (Yeo ok and Soo Nam son)

Kim Myeong Kuk as Han Man Soo (chef)

Song Yong Kyu as kang Jin Goo (Manager Kang)

Choi Sung Guk as Lee Baek Ho

Ryu Si heon as Nae Ae Sook

H Ill as John

Actually I watched this drama at my Granma's house. yeah, MY GRANDMA. She GOT ASTRO. Me not.

So I already watched first episode, why not just continue and finish it. Then I watch online. Youtube. The story is about a marry life of Na Yeok and Soo Nam. They were husband and wife. The divorce happened because of affair Soo Nam made with Victoris. Then they had changing soul after an accident. This occur because Soo Nam has to pay back in this life and his past life. In past life, Soo Nam also betrayed Yeo Ok's love.  In the changing soul period, Yeo Ok pregnant but her soul is in Soo Nam's body. So i can say that the husband is pregnant. But then things gone wrong when Soo Nam again does affair with Victoria. he still worry, care and talk to her even Yeo Ok is actually need him by her side in being General Manager. Okay, the rest, watch it by yourself. Muahaha. XD Thats all I can tell.

Okay, have a good tea!! 

drink while yr tea hot is soo refreshing! ;)

A F-R-I-E-N-D

Konbanwa!!

Hello dear readers!! So tonight my nose is stuck and my throat sore. Haih.. I dont know why. Astaghfiruallah... Maybe because past few days I ate pizza. Haha, my dad brought two boxes of pizza from office. Seem like I have gained weigh. :/ But that is a second problem. Now a big problem is my throat. I hate it. Cause it hurts and effect me when Im talking. My nose annoys me cause I cant focus 100% on something but keep busy finding tissue to wipe. Ergh.. Okay tell me who else in the world like having flue? The sideeffect is you will having fever and headache and feel like scolding people around you. Haha again because of the mucous in your nose. #Fact-I-recovered

That guy is so like me. Tonight I just finish a  roll of tissue

So that is the bad of eating fast food. XD Muahaha. I usually cook pizza on my own. I use recipe from yeast mauripan. When you buy, there is a piece of paper in the box. There are also raisins bun recipe and errr okay I forgot what else. Haaa, donut!! Tonight, I am not sleepy. I just did revise on physics, add math and history. *with my flue* but I still feel that is not enough. Plus with a suck feeling that I feel cause my mind just pop out about Mr. Waffle. Well, I tweet with him about few minutes. Sometimes, I weird about his best friend. Of course his best friend is a guy. My point is, they seem like couple. *not gay* Cause I think me not acting like that with Mr. Waffle. As my sis said, "best friend status is higher than girlfriend/boyfriend" So, maybe that is the reason. When I think back... yeah, me and my best friend also acting like that. 

I am no mood in tweetering. I give space for them to chat. Maybe I am the resist in their friendship. Well, I am not jealous. But just afraid if I will cause they break. I know Mr. Waffle loves his friend so much. That is the conclusion. FULL STOP. So a friend is really important meehh?? Yeah.. They made who you are. Who your friends also describe you. So behave yourself when making friends. In friendship, there will never a resist to friend with a good or bad person. But its up to you. YOU.  Better close with friends like this; A FRIEND IN NEED IS A FRIEND INDEED. Me love my friends.. <3333

I really have no idea how I gonna cope at school if all my close friends go to boarding school. Oh #lostworld

Tonight today this hour and moment I feel like wanna babling and continue babling. *even I know my eng essays are not done yet.* -.-  Can I be best friend with Mr Waffle? I afraid of this relationship with him. I cant expect until when it last long. And at that moment,, what will I do and how the hell I gonna face it. Enough for once I faced when I am in form two. How torture it is only Allah knows. ._. Every nights I wasting up pages of my diary, singing the damn songs. And I afraid, how if that thing turns around again? Like a wheel which goes round and round. NEVER STOP. 

So this topic end here. Good night peeps. Sleep tight. Dont forget to read ayat Qursi. :)

-xoxo, Miss Cupcake.

Gomen ne -_-

Konbanwa.

Tonight I really feel something has hitted me. I dont know what have I done. Ya Allah, help me. It is not a big problem but its screw me up. I felt guilty. Maybe he really means that person mentioned is me. After came back from Johor, I suddenly feel like dont want to talk to him. A feeling like I wanna be alone for a while...

I feel like there is something that block me to talk with him. Maybe because of due to PMR result. I wanna focus on it. Btw, I am back from mosque so I think that is not nice to talk with him because of missing him. I learnt something about Prophet of Muhammad. The sunnah, things that He practiced along his life. Like how he comb his hair and stuff. He got many miracles that Allah gave to deliver Islam. He was a tough guy and patient faced throughout the challenges. I hope I can start to love Prophet if Muhammad as He love us. I feel a bit ashame cause feel nothing for Him, but do more sins. Btw, I am a human. Everyone does wrong.

Dear Mr. Waffle: I am sorry. I do not talk to you, but doesn't mean I do not miss you. I just stop myself for be tooo eagerly to talk with you. Don't know where its come, suddenly feel a bit shy to start our conversation. -.-

*This video is just for fun. ^_^ Enjoy!

Ola Johor~

Konbanwa!!

I just back home from Johor. It was very unexpected journey. Haha, actually, my dad missed morning flight so we went there together by my dad's car. It took 4 hrs to reach there. So, it was not too tired since my hometown's journey is much longer. First place we dropped is Johor Premium Outlet. At fist we were super amaze with its beautiful bulding and the things sold. But you will feel like wanna barf when stay there half a day doing nothing. My dad has to go meeting so we spent hrs walked and explored everything.

Wohhooo~ Everything are branded. So, you can imagine how much price each! -..- I just bought few clothes. Most of them are not my taste. I like Japanese and Korean styles. Besides, most of the food are non-halal. Okay, this is just my opinion. Because my mom said if the workers are non-muslim, we can't eat neither they cooking clear nor the food edible. Even muslim who doesn't pray, we still can't eat their cooking. *Advise: Dear muslims, shalat before people shalat for you. Anyway, shalat is included in Rukun Islam.

Me and my bro.
We were damn bored waiting for my dad done meeting.

We just stayed a night at my dad's house. Otw to go home, we bought many kerepeks. My aunty ordered 10 packets of banana kerepek. This morning I woke up with sore throat. Ate too many kerepeks. =.="

MEE BANDUNG!!
nyumm2~

*My lunch yesterday. Its a big regret for not eat mee bandung when reach Johor.