Waiting Day

Asslm and good morning..?

Ohisashiburi!! I HAVENT UPDATE THIS BLOG LIKE 2YEARS??  FEEL LIKE I DONT UPDATE THIS BLOG LIKE YEARS!! Fyi, I already end my uitm foundation and alhamdulillah got good pointer even though nt really the best. But still Im proud of it cause only asasian will know how the struggle we ve been through. T_T Also, my holiday break only a few weeks left to pursue my degree. Right now I am a kindergarten teacher hahaa.

Yesterday, (since I am updating this blog at 0037hrs) upu result has been released. Also with usm and um. Sadly I was rejected by um. Its okay because uitm and usm still want to take me haha. Both universities offer me bachelor in computer science. Which is the course that I have dream for (since I was in foundation 2nd sem). It is not really my dream. But I realized I am nt good enough in pure science subjects especially BIOLOGY!! My high school result is nt that bad. Hmm wondering too what made me so dislike and lazy to study biology. Maybe the terms hav been longer and the process of everything has been too confused and complicated. Same goes to chemistry. What the heck I dont understand what I am learning for. I am nt fed up with them. I just quit. But I do want to relearn them, just for fun. For personal knowledge haha. All of the moments before I studied them just fr pass exam. zzzzzzz

I am happy for my friends. Many of them got good courses or the courses that they wanted. And sadly, there is also a few of them who dont get the courses they want, either rejected or get another course offered. I am praying the best for you guys. Lets fight together even we pursue degree in another university. Together we success!!

Minna, ganbarimashou ne!! (^v^)

It is a dream to walk with you in college.
And spend time together, like in high school.
The good old times. :)

PLKN Feedbacks

Assalamualaikum and hi.

A big alhamdulillah, praised to Allah because Im still alive right now. Alhamdulillah I can still breathe. Pheww..

Alhamdulillah again. I had completed my Khidmat Negara. Two months taught me many things. My two months life in Kem PLKN Warisan, Masjid Tanah, Melaka is full of sad and happy moments. Thanks for my coaches, my lovely Charlie Company, my daring BP4 dormates and my bestfriends Tiga Bersaudara. Dont say Im sombong cause I actually miss you guys so much. 

PLKN taught me how to survive by myself. Arrange myself which work have to settle first. When to do the laudry. I learnt about life and friendship. This stuffs I never get even i schooled for 5years. I learnt about being a good leader. And be nice to everyone. Even you dislike them. Kindly remember, not everyone likes you. So dont have the feeling of perasan bagus and perasan terlebih santan. You have to do stuffs on your own feet and depends on people you trust. No. Actually trust everyone. Teamwork. It is depends on what stuffs you're doing. You couldnt share your private stories to public. And I learnt that we shouldnt and never tell bad about people. You have to advice them first. If things getting worse, then you tell the teachers. Dont forget about justice. No matter the person fault is your own friend or your enemy. Bear in mind. And be tough. Life must go on. Two months without phone is not the end of your life. Dont dont ever do such the reckless things!!

I also learnt that distance make the love stronger. For the first time in forever I miss my parents, my siblings my family so damn much. I miss my home. I miss my-neighbour's-chicken. I miss the grocery nearby my house. I miss the surau we always go every Sunday. I miss Xemra like hell. And I miss Daus so damn much. For the first time in forever I miss Daus so much much my heart hurt damn much. For the first time I felt so desperate. I couldnt communicate with my family my friends and him. Once a week only, until we were given our phones back. I just hunting and watching for the moon. Hoping that Daus would do the same though. Sobsob. 

Alhamdulillah. Right now. I feel more alive. LOL. My love towards my family is more and more. And I can feel theirs toward me is getting increase too. I know like hell they miss me too. Cause this was the first time we separated. I can see it in my parents' eyes. :) even mama and abah dont mention it. No. They will never mention it I know that well. p/s: My brother seems crazy for not arguing with me since Im not at home haha. 

For Daus, I can feel it. The feeling is getting stronger. Distance taught me to trust more and be loyal. I hope we stay longer and insya allah until marry and live a happy ever after life till jannah!! Hehe. I am looking towards our plans. May Allah ease everything. ^_^

Mata ne. Oyasumi!! 

My Dal Po.

Konnichiwa.

I got only 2 days left for PLKN. *sigh* Well actually I aint sighing about PLKN. But I am a bit touched with my Dal Po. Hmmm I missed him like hell and he isnt even... Ok. I do agree, he a bit busy and he must have his own plan and life. But... STILL.. 

Am i too ego? HAHA. I dont think so. I dont want him to see me that I am so desperate. Yes, I am totally desperate to talk to him. But I try to make something else to forget the damn feeling but nah its only works for a while until then I remember it again. Huaaaa... T_T

This is why I hate premenstrual cycle signs. I hate it so much, My focus is disrupted. I miss him a lot. And a lot. And the worst is I know maybe we cant even text for 2 months can you imagine that? I try hard to calm myself down that everything gonna be okay I know we have even pass through this kinda long-term-relationship when he away at SABDA. But, still.. :(

I think this is my punishment of last year. Hmm.. I love Dal Po. Dont ever leave me. Take care for two months there. Remember we have a-long-plan-outing after PLKN. Again, I hate premenstrual cycle signs!!

Hmm bad Dal Po!! :"(

A F-R-I-E-N-D

Konbanwa!!

Hello dear readers!! So tonight my nose is stuck and my throat sore. Haih.. I dont know why. Astaghfiruallah... Maybe because past few days I ate pizza. Haha, my dad brought two boxes of pizza from office. Seem like I have gained weigh. :/ But that is a second problem. Now a big problem is my throat. I hate it. Cause it hurts and effect me when Im talking. My nose annoys me cause I cant focus 100% on something but keep busy finding tissue to wipe. Ergh.. Okay tell me who else in the world like having flue? The sideeffect is you will having fever and headache and feel like scolding people around you. Haha again because of the mucous in your nose. #Fact-I-recovered

That guy is so like me. Tonight I just finish a  roll of tissue

So that is the bad of eating fast food. XD Muahaha. I usually cook pizza on my own. I use recipe from yeast mauripan. When you buy, there is a piece of paper in the box. There are also raisins bun recipe and errr okay I forgot what else. Haaa, donut!! Tonight, I am not sleepy. I just did revise on physics, add math and history. *with my flue* but I still feel that is not enough. Plus with a suck feeling that I feel cause my mind just pop out about Mr. Waffle. Well, I tweet with him about few minutes. Sometimes, I weird about his best friend. Of course his best friend is a guy. My point is, they seem like couple. *not gay* Cause I think me not acting like that with Mr. Waffle. As my sis said, "best friend status is higher than girlfriend/boyfriend" So, maybe that is the reason. When I think back... yeah, me and my best friend also acting like that. 

I am no mood in tweetering. I give space for them to chat. Maybe I am the resist in their friendship. Well, I am not jealous. But just afraid if I will cause they break. I know Mr. Waffle loves his friend so much. That is the conclusion. FULL STOP. So a friend is really important meehh?? Yeah.. They made who you are. Who your friends also describe you. So behave yourself when making friends. In friendship, there will never a resist to friend with a good or bad person. But its up to you. YOU.  Better close with friends like this; A FRIEND IN NEED IS A FRIEND INDEED. Me love my friends.. <3333

I really have no idea how I gonna cope at school if all my close friends go to boarding school. Oh #lostworld

Tonight today this hour and moment I feel like wanna babling and continue babling. *even I know my eng essays are not done yet.* -.-  Can I be best friend with Mr Waffle? I afraid of this relationship with him. I cant expect until when it last long. And at that moment,, what will I do and how the hell I gonna face it. Enough for once I faced when I am in form two. How torture it is only Allah knows. ._. Every nights I wasting up pages of my diary, singing the damn songs. And I afraid, how if that thing turns around again? Like a wheel which goes round and round. NEVER STOP. 

So this topic end here. Good night peeps. Sleep tight. Dont forget to read ayat Qursi. :)

-xoxo, Miss Cupcake.

Gomen ne -_-

Konbanwa.

Tonight I really feel something has hitted me. I dont know what have I done. Ya Allah, help me. It is not a big problem but its screw me up. I felt guilty. Maybe he really means that person mentioned is me. After came back from Johor, I suddenly feel like dont want to talk to him. A feeling like I wanna be alone for a while...

I feel like there is something that block me to talk with him. Maybe because of due to PMR result. I wanna focus on it. Btw, I am back from mosque so I think that is not nice to talk with him because of missing him. I learnt something about Prophet of Muhammad. The sunnah, things that He practiced along his life. Like how he comb his hair and stuff. He got many miracles that Allah gave to deliver Islam. He was a tough guy and patient faced throughout the challenges. I hope I can start to love Prophet if Muhammad as He love us. I feel a bit ashame cause feel nothing for Him, but do more sins. Btw, I am a human. Everyone does wrong.

Dear Mr. Waffle: I am sorry. I do not talk to you, but doesn't mean I do not miss you. I just stop myself for be tooo eagerly to talk with you. Don't know where its come, suddenly feel a bit shy to start our conversation. -.-

*This video is just for fun. ^_^ Enjoy!

Ola Johor~

Konbanwa!!

I just back home from Johor. It was very unexpected journey. Haha, actually, my dad missed morning flight so we went there together by my dad's car. It took 4 hrs to reach there. So, it was not too tired since my hometown's journey is much longer. First place we dropped is Johor Premium Outlet. At fist we were super amaze with its beautiful bulding and the things sold. But you will feel like wanna barf when stay there half a day doing nothing. My dad has to go meeting so we spent hrs walked and explored everything.

Wohhooo~ Everything are branded. So, you can imagine how much price each! -..- I just bought few clothes. Most of them are not my taste. I like Japanese and Korean styles. Besides, most of the food are non-halal. Okay, this is just my opinion. Because my mom said if the workers are non-muslim, we can't eat neither they cooking clear nor the food edible. Even muslim who doesn't pray, we still can't eat their cooking. *Advise: Dear muslims, shalat before people shalat for you. Anyway, shalat is included in Rukun Islam.

Me and my bro.
We were damn bored waiting for my dad done meeting.

We just stayed a night at my dad's house. Otw to go home, we bought many kerepeks. My aunty ordered 10 packets of banana kerepek. This morning I woke up with sore throat. Ate too many kerepeks. =.="

MEE BANDUNG!!
nyumm2~

*My lunch yesterday. Its a big regret for not eat mee bandung when reach Johor.

Result

Konbanwa!

Hmm,, don't realized it is December now. Time flies so fast. Yes, I always keep repeat that quote. But, it really is. So, about two weeks left... When I look at calendar, the only thing that pop out is PMR! Allahuakbar... -.-

I have tried my best, I studied and went class night at school. Yeah, I don't take class tuition outside. I like study at home more. :3 I put my mind and pour all the knowledge on to the exam papers. HAHAHA! I hope the answers I did were right. Who knows, anything can happen. And in the anything, I only hope the good thing happens.

Talking of PMR is really freaking me out even I always make a steady face when my friends ask. What should I do? Scream? Nah,,, The best thing to do now is pray to Allah. 

Death Note

Hellooo!!

Death Note is my chosen topic to talk about. *remember I told you on my last post

Well, how many of you EVER KNOW, HEARD EITHER WATCH this anime? So, what's your comment? I gave 9 over 10!! It is damn interesting! I was freezing+cold watched it. Hohoho, I never expect that I'll stick right on the chair to watch it. I spend nights to finish it.

Genre: Mystery, Drama, Supernatural, Police, Psychological, Thriller

Episodes: 37

Age: +17 

                                                         

      

Light Yagami, a smart high school student played as a main character. He found a powerful notebook in his school compound which is named Death Note. It is belonged to Ryuk, shinigami (death god), but uncoincidencely dropped at human world. The thing that amazed about the notebook is it can kill people when names are written on it. The killer just need to know the real name and recognized the face to kill. Lucky for those who got the same name because they are not affected. 

Light kun interested to has the notebook even though he was not believe it first. After tried, he knew it was real, plus with the appearance of Ryuk, by explain it to him. He started to kill people who he thought the disasters of the world. His aim is only one " TO ERASE BAD PEOPLE IN ORDER TO CREATE A NEW PERFECT WORLD WITH JUSTICE".  He created website and named himself Kira=Killer. The whole Japan knew about him, people started live in fear. Suddenly, in the end of his school life, there was a guy named L, he had right thoughts about Kira and cooperated with team Japan police to catch Kira. Soichiro Yagami, who is Light kun's father and also the head of Japan police accepted L to join the team. 

Things became harder when L and Light kun studied in a same university. Light kun started to manipulate people to protect his position and killed people who disturb his plan. Then, Japan was shocked again with an appearance of second Kira when Sakura Tv posted the confirmation videos. Light kun worked out together with second Kira=Misa san by pretend to have a relationship. However, L expected that Kira was Light kun and second Kira was Misa san. Light kun knew things will turn up like this, so he planned earlier by let go the notebook of both Kiras and so when they were caught, they were innocence as they lost memory about the notebooks.

Plans done well when L died killed by Rem, shinigami of Misa san's notebook. He has no choice to kill L or Misa san will be in danger. The thing done by Rem killed himself because when shinigami fall in love, they will die. How? When they write guy name on their notebooks, that is considered as JEALOUS. After that, both kiras memories came back when they have their notebooks, and started their killings.  

To know the continues, watch at http://www.animefreak.tv/watch/death-note-english-dubbed-online-free

Mind your doings. You are being watch by Kira. Have a creepy night…

*Synopsis was written by the blogger from her watching and few references. Pictures: copy paste

Korean Mooood~~~

Anyeong Hasseyo!

Hahaha, it's weird for me to say hello in Korean. I dunno Korean much as much as I know Japanese. But tonight, I feel like wanna listen and listen to my Kpop songs, especially, the four new songs that I downloaded this evening. Ahhh~~ the songs are so..... OMG! I gave 10 out of 10!!!!!

Aigoo, seriously, I feel like I am in my own world, where no one, only me and my Kpops. <3  SO WEIRD, because yesterday, I was crazy of watching anime, Death Note. My friend recommended it last year, and I watch it now. haha, lol.

I'm reading B1A4 lyrics of their new song; Tried To Walk. Oh, that is really touched. Damn, why I started to feel the feeling that I shouldn't feel it. *huh* Stop dude, stop. ....................................................................

Listening to Korean songs make me fly away *especially when listen+look at the lyrics.

Now, I keep repeat the same song, maybe until, I bored. That's mean I'm crazy of that song! hahaha. XD

Watch Your Step!

Hello again!

Guess where am I right now? hehe, in my room,blogging+listening songs with my lovely tablet. <3 I have no idea to do. Miss my blog, about a day I dont view. Im trying to upgrade my blog. But I am using my tablet so it's hard to put spngs and so on. Actually Idont even choose a topic to babble about.

Hm, how about dance? Did you ever dance at least once in your life? I bet each of us did at least in a kindergarden show. hihi. Now, I am practicing Miss A I Dont Need A Man. The dance is quite simple, but I still cant memorise and master the steps. Ugh. this evening was my first worse dance. I felt stressed and if someone give me a punching bag, I will no doubt kick it. Seriously, it has been a looooooong time for me to hit the punching bag since I stopped from taekwondo class.

Okay, back to the topic. I dont know why the hell I am hard to memorise it. I need a full focus and a flexible body to dance perfectly.

Pretend that is me, so, how I am look like? Cute nah? hahahaha.. jk.

Maybe that is how I am when dancing. A big smile, hands up. erk. Okay, that is reallly different with the dance I gonna learn.

So, the video I uploaded is the one I am practicing. Enjoy! ;)

HAPPY (^v^)

Hello readers!
I am happy TONIGHT as my header was place right where it should be. I have moved it to the center. Lol.. A bunch of bloggers will laugh at me as they see my post. Never mind, it is normal for a beginner, right? At least I am learning. hehe. I changed again my background, I feel the older one has bad colour. So, I tink this one is okay. Pink ribbon and stuffs. But, I still unsatisfied with the writtens. I cant read it properly because of the colour. I have no idea what the hell of colour that is match. *blurr...

turn off the light. it a waste.

Now, I am trying to make my blog BEAUTY BUT NOT TOO FUNKY, AND PEOPLE CAN READ MY WRITTENS. Because mostly I saw the blogs are enough pretty, but I cant read the writtens well. -.-
Or, the letters just hurt my eyes with the blinking and stuffs.

It is 2 am already. Tata! Have a nice dream. =)